Finishing Things

So, here's the deal. I have a ton of music I have written. I have literally thousands of songs that are in various states of completion; but mainly, in-completion. It's not that I didn't like these compositions, or that I scrapped them and never planned to come back to them. It's just the opposite. I almost always intended to come back and work on them, usually within hours or days of starting them. But... I didn't. For whatever reason(s) at the time, I didn't get back to them. Instead, more than likely, the next time I got back to the studio and worked, it was on my latest new idea for yet another new song or project.

Why do I do this? This is not something isolated to my musical creations, though those are the most glaring examples of my in-completion paralysis. I also have this issue at work in the computer industry (software I have written), projects at home (paintings, poetry, writing left-handed, learning guitar, household repairs, equipment repairs, etc etc). In fact, it's a miracle I get anything done at all.

I could rattle on and on how this was something instilled in me from my botched childhood, the abuses I suffered, how it's "in my nature" as a result of such an upbringing, blah blah blah. But this is not a therapy session, and I'm not really here to vent.

I am here to simple change gears and complete things. I have a few ideas about how to change the habits that have seemingly calcified as I have grown older. This blog is going to chronicle my attempts to change my course and finish the things that I have started in the past, and the things I will be doing in the future as well.

Today, I am going to go back home (I'm in a coffee shop writing this right now) and begin by starting the re-arrangement of the studio space to make it a more fluid, conducive, and enjoyable workspace to grow from. Today marks the beginning of the end of procrastination, stagnation, and paralysis. Today marks the beginning of the spring. The new era. The future.. I am an Artist.  I finish things. Fine.