For the want of a creative space

Yes, I want to finish a song and be able to say... finished! Alas... I am beset by a couple of small issues... 1) I am rewiring the studio.   2) My lovely Kurzweil PC3 has just lost it's screen! Eeek!  Now, I have worked on my older Kurzweil K2500 many times before; I operated on it, fixed it when nobody, not even Kurzweil themselves, could fix it. So I am not afraid to open my PC3 and investigate. I know the problem is only with the display screen, for example. The keyboard is still quite functional, and if I wanted to, I could drive it with the remote control software on the PC or Mac. But I do like seeing the display, so I am going to have to open it.

Problem is, I don't have the manual for a PC3, just a manual for the K2500. So I either have to find one online, call Kurzweil and force them to give sell me one, or I have to fly blind. The last option is the most likely... it's not a horrible demise. It's really just figuring out which screws to undo on the bottom of the unit to get it open, without undoing the keyboard from the case if possible. No need to remove too many screws... just enough is enough. I just want access to the power supply where I can measure for the supply voltage that feeds the tube display, and then I need to test the connectors around the display; perhaps reseat them. Also consider the possibility of cold solder joints, and fix if needed. I should be able to to this.

Then, get that studio re-arranged and rewired! Music awaits!

Finishing Things

So, here's the deal. I have a ton of music I have written. I have literally thousands of songs that are in various states of completion; but mainly, in-completion. It's not that I didn't like these compositions, or that I scrapped them and never planned to come back to them. It's just the opposite. I almost always intended to come back and work on them, usually within hours or days of starting them. But... I didn't. For whatever reason(s) at the time, I didn't get back to them. Instead, more than likely, the next time I got back to the studio and worked, it was on my latest new idea for yet another new song or project.

Why do I do this? This is not something isolated to my musical creations, though those are the most glaring examples of my in-completion paralysis. I also have this issue at work in the computer industry (software I have written), projects at home (paintings, poetry, writing left-handed, learning guitar, household repairs, equipment repairs, etc etc). In fact, it's a miracle I get anything done at all.

I could rattle on and on how this was something instilled in me from my botched childhood, the abuses I suffered, how it's "in my nature" as a result of such an upbringing, blah blah blah. But this is not a therapy session, and I'm not really here to vent.

I am here to simple change gears and complete things. I have a few ideas about how to change the habits that have seemingly calcified as I have grown older. This blog is going to chronicle my attempts to change my course and finish the things that I have started in the past, and the things I will be doing in the future as well.

Today, I am going to go back home (I'm in a coffee shop writing this right now) and begin by starting the re-arrangement of the studio space to make it a more fluid, conducive, and enjoyable workspace to grow from. Today marks the beginning of the end of procrastination, stagnation, and paralysis. Today marks the beginning of the spring. The new era. The future.. I am an Artist.  I finish things. Fine.